x__wicked__x (x__wicked__x) wrote,
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Update per 2

Well- I'm struggling with myself, but I knew it would be hard. I want to dress like gossip girl- to the 9s, heels jeans and blazers, big jewelry, ect. Not t-shirts.

As I write this, I'm wearing an Animal shirt. I did put on makeup, but the first time this week.

I have downed more water today, but I haven't eaten the best. I keep thinking about how much better I will be at a smaller size, yet I reach for cheese dip. I watch what not to wear, and finally put the cheese down because I'm jealous of how the crazy girl looks KILLER in a black dress.

I also want to have kids in the next few years. They say not to be overweight. Shouldn't THAT be the ultimate inspiration? Not the cute clothes I could buy?

Speaking of which, I'm going to hopefully try to sell some clothes on fatshionista, so it gives me more of an incentive to lose weight.

I also am going to VOW to do a 30 day workout challenge. My parents are coming up to visit in July, and I am going to a ren fair. I really want to show them I'm serious. (But again, with cheese, how can I be serious?)

Tommorrow, I will pull out an outfit I want to fit into (comfortably) by the end of July, and then a long term outfit. I will retake the picture every week.

Size 14, here I come!

Here are my stats.
5'5
CW: 238.8
HW: 246
Goal weight 1: 230
Pre-baby goal (Long term) 180
Current pant size:20/22
Dream pant-size: 14
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